I am awake........
I cannot sleep.......
My heart is heavy......I cannot breathe...
My eyes are wet and I am sad
My mind will not stop thinking about it

There it was..... in a simple email
As if they were everyday words.......
The shocking news
"My friend is terminally ill"

I understand God's Plan
I understand illness and death all to well........
But again ...........I am still numb from the news
I have the knowledge that has been given to me through the gospel to understand this

I understand birth, living and dying
I understand that "the body" is just for this earthly life
That the "spirit" lives on..
That we will meet again.......

I am remembering events and the laughter we have shared
I am sad that I am not closer and cannot offer comfort
I am sad that I do not know what to do .........therefore all I can do is "Pray"
I will pray dear friend that you will not suffer...


I am sad for those who are left to mourn and suffer and give comfort
For you I will pray for strength and courage

As I wander outside to take in deep breaths of life in the late night air ...I see the moon.
My beautiful beautiful moon! Will there be moons in heaven?

And I ponder the thought of how many more moons I will gaze upon before I too... am called home to live with my Father in Heaven.

I will try harder to live my life more fully everyday
I will not waste a minute of it
I will serve others
I will be more kind and loving

I will ask for forgiveness and I will grow a deeper testimony

I will appreciate every breath I breathe..... to live
To just "LIVE"
To live a full and righteous life while I am here on this earthly journey!